A change is was that kills me from inside

Every minute every second every moment it does

Never wanted things to change

But why does it not happen according to my will

It is hard to see my surrounding being so flipped

Was it like so less time that helped or was it like i was late

Why is it hard to accept

Even though knowing i was the one reason behind

Every moment for me is filled of guilt

Every second of me makes me realise the truth

Every split part of my soul helps me go through flashbacks

Never wanted to be in this stage

But the laws never change i guess it dropped me like a whale

Feeling so heavy at this moment

Even the tears now make no sense

Am i so bad or did i do so bad to a person ?

That now i am carried away by all the pain that never existed !

Is it worth for me to stay here in this room

Or is it worth for someone to take that place instead

Cause i can see there is no space left here for me

I don't have even a space to stand and wave

Minute by minute, hour by hour, these forces are pushing me away

As if like i am the dirt around the shore which is been washed away

Looking for a reason but finding none

Guess this is the brutal punishment than taking a loan

Emotions hey emotions where were you earlier

If were not there they why the hell you came near

Lost is the space now hardly can be filled

Blank is the heart now guess never can be healed

Rising there a dark hole calling me asap

Looking forward to climb and jump wearing a cap

Sometimes fake smile is just not the only way to wear a mask

Sometimes its more than just a mask to wear it and sew guilt a task

Where am i? Where do i stand nobody knows

Looks like i am the one used by people as hoes.

Seasons change and so does the mood

But never thought it would be more fast than my recent hood.