On Tuesday I started my microdose. I’ve never felt better. Today is my second day. I’m loving it. It’s calmed. It’s just beginning to feel at ease.

Today we were told that an aunt is the verge of death. She has Alzheimer's. It’s been a whole process of detachment since it started, now it’s imminent. The best thing that could happen is that she died soon as she wouldn’t get up from bed. I’m feeling especially vulnerable and nervous. I don’t know to do, feel, or behave. I’m a little lost and I feel uncomfortable. I really don’t want that same fate. I’m extremely grateful about her, about our time together, our past. But, to be honest, I want this to end as soon as possible. 

Ale took this picture of me. We’re starting a company. I feel happy. I just come out from floating. A beautiful and restoring experience. I thought I need to give more intention to my life. To act more consciously. I think I’ve been letting life happen with an attitude of passivity. I want to be more active, to make things happen willingly. I need to show myself and my wife actual interest. I’m starting right now!