Beaded Earrings——JADE Series
Violeen Graham
This JADE design series combine jadeite, pearl and amethyst with glass beads.
《Different Entities（不同的个体）》
by Violeen Graham
Will there still be pain?
If those unaware lies gone
Will there still be pain?
If we are totally identical entities
Manipulated life fake
Tortured by aimless ego
Cannot fight another tumult of delusion
No longer trust once being hurt
No longer own once being discarded
Have no more reason to disguise
In the access to truth in a dream
I heard your salty repentance
That night, that light, that ocean
Someone called my former name
Slightly turned around in the dim street
Never difficult to leave if never attached
We are different entities
I am not even me
Memories help transform self
Aftermaths choke my throat each time
Wander the cliff alone every night until fall
Everlasting battle belongs to the person not myself
Whenever the imaginary pain becomes true
My sarcastic smile grows
Those who living inside my body
I never acquainted with
Their each emotion in the ocean that night
Like ruffled waves light cannot break through
You are not me
Should never have more expectation
I am only a shadow of myself
Should never make permanent oath
I stand outside me to see the pain
You mistake my existence into rationality
Even during good days
Also afraid of that empty sky
No wills to look back
Goodbye my old face
Give our fragments to each other
Loose our grip when needed to be near
Will there still be pain?
Should always be
A sea coast to lick the wounds
Will there still be pain?
I try my best to feel you
But you ignore every touch
Just like that careless child
Playing by the dusk beach
(2021.10.27译）
Will there still be pain?
If those unaware lies gone
Will there still be pain?
If we are totally identical entities
Manipulated life fake
Tortured by aimless ego
Cannot fight another tumult of delusion
No longer trust once being hurt
No longer own once being discarded
Have no more reason to disguise
In the access to truth in a dream
I heard your salty repentance
That night, that light, that ocean
Someone called my former name
Slightly turned around in the dim street
Never difficult to leave if never attached
We are different entities
I am not even me
Memories help transform self
Aftermaths choke my throat each time
Wander the cliff alone every night until fall
Everlasting battle belongs to the person not myself
Whenever the imaginary pain becomes true
My sarcastic smile grows
Those who living inside my body
I never acquainted with
Their each emotion in the ocean that night
Like ruffled waves light cannot break through
You are not me
Should never have more expectation
I am only a shadow of myself
Should never make permanent oath
I stand outside me to see the pain
You mistake my existence into rationality
Even during good days
Also afraid of that empty sky
No wills to look back
Goodbye my old face
Give our fragments to each other
Loose our grip when needed to be near
Will there still be pain?
Should always be
A sea coast to lick the wounds
Will there still be pain?
I try my best to feel you
But you ignore every touch
Just like that careless child
Playing by the dusk beach
(2021.10.27译）
JADE 1
(I designed this as a present to my soon married friend.）
JADE 2
JADE 3
《Different Entities （不同的个体）》（Chinese Version）
by Violeen Graham
还会有痛吗？
假如没有了那些不自知的谎言
还会有痛吗？
假如我们是完全相同的个体
被支配的人生虚假
被有心无行动的自我折磨
再抵不住的妄想骚动
被伤害后无法信任
被抛弃后无法拥有
再无更多的理由掩饰
我在接近真相的梦境中
听到你咸咸的忏悔
那夜那灯那海
有人向我喊出我曾经的名字
在昏暗的海街微微回头
离开不难假若从未依恋
我们是不同的个体
我甚至不是我自己
记忆帮助变幻自身
后果却时时掐住我咽喉
每夜独行悬崖上直至失足
恒久战役属于不是我的那个人
每当幻痛愈加真实
我讥讽的笑容愈加灿烂
那些住在我体内的
我从未熟识
他们每一个情感于我那夜的海
如那灯光无法透过的浪花翻滚
你不是我
从不应有更多期待
我仅是我自己的一个影子
从不应向他人作出永恒的允诺
我站在自身以外观望痛苦
你将我的实存误会成理性
即便是美好的时光
也惧怕那片充斥着空虚的天
无意回头
再见我过去的面容
将我们的碎片交给对方
需要接近但松开了握住的手
还会有痛吗？
总归要有一个
独自舔舐伤口的海岸
还会有痛吗？
我竭尽全力去感同身受
可你视若无睹
像极在那日暮海滩
嬉戏的无心孩童
（写于2021.07.19）
Thank you!
